afraid? of a life without having lived

a song for the moon...

about me

like i mentioned, i'm ryder and i'm a irish developer based in the UK! i also draw, code and write a lot during my free time. a lot of my creative projects can be found here! :3
i'm 25, use he/they and i actually have a degree in compsci, so i do (kinda) know what i'm doing. i'm not actually employed right now, but that's for health reasons lol.
this site is for personal projects, art, writing and as my own journal/blog. this is also a site for oc x canon content so keeping it real here !

system map

this is something pretty new for me but there's a good chance that i'm part of a system, aka some kind of diassociative identity disorder. it's not something i talk too much about but sometimes it comes up.
so far, all i know is that there's me (ryder) who hosts and generally fronts, there's an american guy called dean and a girl who doesn't like talking to us. most of the time, when the others do show themselves, they co-front with me.
part of the reason i want this archive to be up here is so i can keep some amount of track. journalling irl is difficult so, hopefully this will help?

who the hell is this other anti social guy?? he talks to no one and i keep losing time to him!!! like i'm talking won't talk to the system members, won't talk to other people. causes some real problems for us, comeon man.